Blue Umbrella

Thank God 212 went well. I actually very surprised when the president is also came to the mass.

Yesterday is also the first Friday of the month and I decided to go to the Church at Friday this week. The priest actually was giving relevant speech for the current situation.

My work was a mess though, it's really hard to concentrate to my job yesterday.

But even after a relieving outcome in the national political situation, Trump did something again internationally. He made my "this world is gonna end in my time" anxiety appear again...

Today I cleaned up my room, chatting with some friends, and looking at booking.com for my accommodation options for the next year vacation plan. I feel too relaxed today, but I guess it's okay to be a bit relaxed on weekend.

It's December

Christmas is near. 2017 is just next month and the year of Rooster is just the next 2 months. After all depressing November, I still feel plunge into darkness. I don't know if it's still worth to live in this world and I feel hopeless with humanity. I know not all people losing their common sense, but I fear that common sense is actually minority. I feel as if my budding hope is taken away from me.

I think I recovered from my burnout. I don't feel too scared with my works anymore (although I'm still limiting myself in taking job offer). But now I'm depressed with the social politic situation around me. I feel like my works is actually a little solace from this crazy reality.

Tomorrow they said there will be "Super Peaceful Act of Demonstration". I'm feeling nauseous...

Hoax News and Bigoted People

Lately it's not about work anymore. I feel more depressed because of politics. Hoax news are keep coming, everywhere, everyday.

I just don't understand why people can easily believe hoax news with bombastic and unbelievable headlines. Is it because their hatred to certain people can easily makes their logic and mind aren't functioned? Or am I just overestimating human beings? And they didn't even open for discussion. "If you don't like it just go away and don't comment. If you agree, click share and like" they said.

My grandaunt is Trump supporters and my aunt prefer Hillary. They were having conversations about USA presidential election. Then my grandaunt said "Are you really a Christian or are you actually a Muslim? Why are you supporting Hillary? Don't you know she's been paid by Saudi and Obama is actually Muslim who pretended to be Christian?"

I feel sick, I want to puke. I know some of my relatives are racist, but now I know my grandaunt is no better than FPI and their fanboys who can easily label other people as 'kafir' just because they have different political opinion even though they're having same religion.

Am I supposed to do something? Or is there nothing I can do? Am I just not trying hard enough? Why do people have to hate each other just because their different, having different opinions or having different faith? Why is it so easy to hate?

I'm scared.