little children sang about kill and murder song in "planting the corn" melody

Lately there are 2 biggest concern in my mind.

1. Do I still have time
2. How to react wisely in this world with so much hatred that kindness seems only have small effect in it

My friends said I'm too paranoid and everything will be all right. But so far there's nothing, anything, that proves it. It's getting worse day by day.

I'm tired with all "We're not afraid" or "Terrorism has no religion" or "Don't lower yourself on their level" jargon. I'm tired people just scorn it on the social media without doing anything that really try to fix all of this, and in the end they're just bickering at each other who is the most righteous one. I'm mad at myself for not knowing what to do to fix or help all of this. I'm not even sure if I can help myself.

Children used for demonstration, singing as a mob, chanting about killing people so easily in this country. People try to turn blind or blame anything else if it's their identity that being probed. Mostly in denial. It won't affect me directly anyway, maybe that's what in their mind.

too scared to have hope

People said, it will be all right. All of these are temporary.
I can't believe it until it's proven. With all that's happening I can't dare to believe the situation won't get any worse.

People said, there still lots of people who have a right mind.
But 42% is not helping. The other team still have more number. I don't even think those people with right mind will be able to help if anything bad is really happening.

I hope I'm wrong. I really want they're right. That everything will be okay and they'll laugh at me for my paranoid mind.
But I'm too scared to have hope.

I will be lying to myself if I believe that everything will be all right. And I really suck at lying.