Dilema

Today my brother called me and say there's cheap ticket slots to Japan and ask me if I'm ready for next year. This is too soon for my heart... Considering I plan for 2 weeks vacation but my company surely won't grant me more than 5 days off. And currently I also plan for resignation. The catch is, I'm still in the middle of a game project.

So here's my choice about resignation :


1. Resign (possibly) before the project done in the next February
Which I don't stay until the end of the project

+ I can go for 2 weeks vacation
+ I can focus on my bigger longer term goal quicker than the 2nd option
+ I can focus to improve my skill and look for another opportunities

- I'll be struggle financially
- I'll feel guilty for not finishing the project
- I don't know what to say to my boss for the resignation reasons, it will be unacceptable if it's nothing really urgent/important and I don't want to give too many lies
- Inconvenience to my colleagues for leaving halfway since I'm not sure in what state of the project I'll be leaving


2. Resign after the project done which I don't know when
But I stay until the project really ended

+ Finally after a long time, I finish something big even if I'm just a part of it
+ The resignation will be much smoother
+ Financially more stable, I can save and prep more before being unemployed

- I really don't know when it will be, it could take much much longer
- Possibility that everything could turn worse with our teamwork and my burnout
- The vacation need to wait another year, but if the global situation get worse I don't know if I'm still able to go there (it might be irrational, but I feel like 2017 is my last chance to go to Japan)

= opt for having only 9 days vacation (5-6 days off), but even 2 weeks is actually not enough for everything I want to do there.
= Tell honestly I want 2 weeks vacation and 9 days off with the risk of getting rejected and sarcasm for the rest of the year.

Rationally, I'll go with option 2. But the irrational fear of how the world will be considering current situation, I don't want to miss my available chances of seeing Sakura flowers.

my global irrational fear : (US presidential election, Dallas Shooting, Brexit, Japan wants to have it's military back, Japan-China-2Koreas awkward relationship, China's movement around ASEAN territory, raise of bigotry and racism all over the world, ISIS and Middle East conflicts, etc)
I do feel hopeless with the future...

I'll look at the situation until August or September before I reach my decision.