When was I never worried. I worry all the time. ==;
Now I'm worrying my brain. I can't control my emotion even for something small. I have auto fear response for sometimes for nothing. I hope it's not related with how I fell, smacked my jaw, and damaged my 2 front teeth some months ago. I'm worried that my hippocampus is already having problems... I won't suffocate myself anymore, so please be well... T___T
Today, I went to immigration office again. My business there finished around 8am. I was relieved and impressed it didn't took so long. But I found myself feeling guilty because now I actually could go to work. But I didn't. Instead, I went to shopping malls, ate lots of xiao long paos, ate some desserts, and walking around the malls.
My auto fear response was triggered when I remembered today is Tuesday and I was having cake ate working hours. I almost fell again because I didn't notice there is stairs in front of me. Thank God my brother grabbed me fast so I didn't fall completely and didn't get hurt.
Tomorrow is another workday. I really need this project to be finished before I can really feel calm about everything.
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