It will be a long five years, or maybe two.

Been pretty long since the last post. Shitty stuffs still happen around the world but I managed to get better.

It's just today I have some anxiety attack again as the result for lack of sleep, stress of works, and eating too much cakes. My office work is okay so far, it's the side jobs that's a bit getting out of hand. And I still need to learn language for the upcoming test, drawing practice, and managing my IG.

So voila, those horrible feelings are creeping in again. The usual thoughts that makes me feel worthless, and my rational side is still managed as hard as it can to hang on. My uncontrolled heartbeat is making me nuts. And pressure from deadlines is making it worse.

I need to hang on. I need the money anyway... I have to get out as soon as I can.