I cry at the office again, for another small matter. Some colleagues just mention their irritation with my singing habit when I listen to music while working. And suddenly it's burst again, all the stress, anxiety, and insecurity I've tried to manage. I couldn't hold my tears an cry for almost an hour. After tired I finally could work and try to smile. The I get back and I started to cry again.
I understand they're just joking. But somehow I can't control the anger and sadness. Perhaps some noticed I was crying but didn't dare to ask much. They might think I'm weird of a bad person to be oversensitive for such joke.
I also tired with work and revisions. It feels like nothing's gonna end. There's also something wrong and it's all my fault. And the feelings that makes me just want ti disappear is keep resurfacing. I try to remind myself that I still have a big vacation plan next year. I still have someone to care about me. I need to life.
Can I tell someone that I'm having burnout and anxiety? I'm so afraid people will just see me as weird and sick person.
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