It's been a while

While I feel better at managing my emotions for sometime, the hopelessness is still lingering. There will be 2nd election next month. My works are also piling up again. I feel anxious for my job and my life. It will be a big storm if April 19th didn't go well.

The vacation is getting nearer. Maybe that's also contributing my anxiety. I hope everything will went well. I managed to lose some weight in the last several months. I hope it won't hike too much after the vacation. 

I really hope my bad premonition will only stay in my head as an irrational paranoia. I doesn't have to be true. I don't want it at all.