Slow Motion

Saturday, My brother and I tried an American Style Brunch Restaurant at Kemang and we ate lots of Bacon. After that we went to business and franchise exhibition since my uncle suggest me to do so. Perhaps 50-60% of the exhibitor are in food industry. The Laundry sector is up for coin laundry style. I kinda interested with courier franchise business since it's not too expensive compared to others, but I don't have a place for the business.

There's also Kompas Travel fair so we went there too. Cheap ticket to Japan is really a big temptation for me. My brother's friends seems interested to go to Japan and my brother will go with them as well if they're decided to go. I feel devastated inside, but I know I can't go with him if I want my two weeks planned trip. If I go next year, I can't go there again the year after that since Mom will be against it and I will also have less budget for my plan. I just wish they won't go in Sakura seasons or Red Autumn or I will be died by jealousy...

Sunday, I feel time run so fast while here I am in slow motion. I was planning to make this day for learning. But then I woke up late, find myself unmotivated at everything except eating. I feel more and more losing control of my food intake. I try to play games but I find myself feeling guilty while playing. Should I permit myself for not doing anything? Should I force myself to work harder even when I feel nauseous when thinking about it? People around me work so hard for their life and passion. I wonder if I just using burnout as pretext for slacking off and doing nothing.