Avocados

Monday went well

I manage to finished what I planned for Monday's work. I also managed to finish some revisions.
I get back at 8. My lunch is indomie and my dinner is Soto Ayam.

I'm glad to try Soto Ayam near me. It has everything I want from this dish. chicken lean, potato, tomato, cabbage, chunk of risol/lumpia, and the most important emping. Oh, they actually missing bean sprout. But it's okay, I rarely get soto with emping and tomato.

I noticed some parts of my skin in the face gets rough. I'm also not having my period yet. I wonder if I'm having hormonal imbalance...

I signed myself for some online psychology therapy research project. But I might not fit for their criteria to be participant. I only have burnout and they might need someone with more serious problem for their research.

I spent the night dilly dallying in internet and 15 minutes yoga for beginner, then I went to sleep.


Tuesday starts well

I get to the office a bit earlier. I managed to finished last days revisions before lunch.

I have to meet some student who ask my help for their thesis. So I ate curry rice in CP's extension. I bought some bread for dinner. I also bought avocados since I feel like I need it's nutrient. But it wasn't ripe yet.

I get back to the office at 3pm and rushed to my works. I was getting annoyed by how much work I need to retouch for the effects thanks to someone who combine it but didn't keep the initial files. The bones and asset structures are also mess, giving me a painful feelings since I need to revised some pats of it.

My programmer began to stress out how he fear he need to catch up with the deadline and lots of things aren't ready yet. The guilt creeps to me again...

I'm so sorry... I wish I could just disappear and run from this situation. I wish I could be more useful... I wish I can still be okay to work harder. I was thinking if I die perhaps everybody will be lifted from having me burdening them. I know it wasn't true.

I get back at 8pm and try to hold my tears on my way back. I buy avocado juice. The research project emailed me back and say I fit as the participant and ask my confirmation to involved in it and will be interviewed before the research started. I say yes.

I posted blog about today's curry place. After this I'll do the 15 minutes yoga and get some sleep.